Monday, April 18, 2011

Suck My Left One

In the last 20 years that I have spent living with Bi Polar Disorder(well gee, I suppose that's putting it mildly) , people (friends, family, and yes even Doctors!)have given me all sorts of brainless, cruel, cold, seriously silly, simply stupid, and awesomely absurd advice. They were either making poor attempts to somehow make me feel better, or they would just put their foot or any other foreign object in my ass hoping to knock the "crazies" out of me. Sadly, their attempts have totally failed.

Here are my thoughts on some of my least favorite bits of advice  I have heard over the last 20 years. I have envisioned these bits of advice morphing into filthy little cockroaches, falling out of your mouth to the floor, each one kissing the bottoms of my boots, going out with a CRUNCH instead of a BANG. How's that for some food for thought?

Perhaps you might think I should just really learn to snap out of it. That I am just too talented and too pretty to feel this way. Maybe I should just think with a positive attitude. Perhaps you may even feel that all I really need is to go to church, find God and Jesus Christ "Our Savior" in my life. You may feel that there are people in this world that are worse off than me.

 You may even be convinced that I should just be grateful, show more appreciation, and just be happy for all the things that I have, that I should just count my blessings. You may even believe you know how I feel, that I should get out more, interact with people, and have fun. You may think that this 'Bi Polar stuff" is just "All in my head".

You may be convinced that this too shall pass, that I should just roll with the punches. You may say that we all have our crosses to bear. I should just cheer up. You may have no doubt in your mind that life is what you make it, that we create our own reality.

You would not be the first person to tell me how you think I should  live, or how you think I should get better. Get in line, it's about as long as the movie premier for Harry Potter, and while you are standing on it I will just pretend that your face accidentally hits my fist.

I wonder sometimes if someone would tell me "It's all in your head" if I were diabetic. What if I had cancer, would you tell me to "Snap out of it", or "Cheer up?" Try telling someone with MS that you know just how they feel and then let me know how that works out for you. :-)

In a nutshell, I think that opinions are like assholes. Everyone's got one. To hell with what anyone thinks.


  1. The mindless best intentions of the ignorant ones. So often I have wanted to grab them by the throat and scream at them, "SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

  2. "I might just pretend that your face accidentally hits my fist." CLASSIC!! :D Everyone is unique in their own right and what works for one person might not exactly work for someone else. I really admire you for courageously bearing all your thoughts: they are effortless and unapologetic.

    Way to go, Rae!